Hoch poch

hmmm.. I am not able to decide what do I write about. There is this huge sea of thoughts in my head right now. Where do I begin. How do I connect them? Are they issues or are they just thoughts. Is there a common solution which can untangle my mind so that I can think straight.What is the problem? Have I done anything wrong ,is it by chance, is it because I am supposed to learn something, carry forward some special message to my next life? What is it? Why this complication? Why can't I be in control? Why this quest for happiness, why dont I have a reset button. I am not asking for much. Is that the reason? Is this carrot being dangled to keep me ignorant. I am close but I am not finding the end or rather the beginning.I wonder if it is the same for all. Do I have to reach the end to get to the beginning.Do I cease to exist when I have found the answer. Why don't I have the courage for the only thing which matters to me? Is it some kind of a test?Or is it in my fate to forever look for the door. Will I ever find the reason if not the answer. Is it really this complicated or is my mind playing tricks with me. What do I do. Where do I find the angel who can guide me. Why cant life be simple!

My first experience at a film shoot

I happened to be lucky enough to be one of the dancers for a song in the movie ' 3 idiots'. The whole experience was really very exciting and fascinating. Firstly let me tell that the crew of the movie was really friendly . People used to tell me that one can get exploited in the glamor line. After this experience I like to think otherwise. One of the assistant directors auditioned me for a small role. I didn't do it well or else I could have begun my career in bollywood! This shows that if one goes through the right channel and approaches the right people, one will get noticed provided one is talented enough.I was moving around a lot in the audition. One of the guys told me this was a negative point in my audition as it distracts the audience. The stylist is one more person who I will never forget. She looked very cute , dressed very well and she was damn sweet and caring. I was in complete awe of her. During practice, I saw Sharman Joshi for the first time. He looked better than how he looks on screen!! On the day of the shoot, I saw Aamir Khan. He really looked like a star. He was so fair and his skin was glowing like a star. It was fascinating to see how everytime he used to pump himself up to get into the mood few seconds before the recording began. In fact all three actors came up with such fantastic expressions within a matter of few seconds. Trust me , that is really difficult. As expected there were retakes but most of the retakes were because of problems with the camera angles. It was really interesting to look at all the fancy equipment they use and how they alter light so that they don't have a major problem while editing. I was called to the shoot only for a day. Nevertheless it was a memorable experience for me. I am dancing right next to one of the characters of the movie. Hopefully, I am visible onscreen when the movie is released.