Tagged

I am: the only one of my kind
I think: a lot!.
I know: I will always remain young at heart.
I want: to possess a supernatural power
I have: tons of energy
I wish: I had the power to change the way life works
I hate: Nothing.. I don't like the word hate.. it has too much of negative energy
I miss: all the girls i've had a crush on
I fear: that one day I might die without having done all that I ever wanted to.
I feel: bored easily if I'm idle
I hear: ?
I smell: ?
I crave: for love
I search: for some unanswers
I wonder: when the tide will turn
I regret: about one thing. Not enough space to explain
I love: dance,ice-cream, shopping, movies
I ache: ?
I care: for everyone I consider a friend
I am not: who you think I am
I believe: everything happens for a reason though it may not seem fair at times
I dance: quite well
I sing: sometimes. I used to be quite ok at it
I cry: shhhh..secret
I don't always:
I fight: only with myself
I write: occasionally
I win: an argument
I lose: hope sometimes
I never: harm anyone
I always: think from my heart
I confuse: people around me
I listen: to all genres of music
I can usually be found: watching a movie, dancing , orkuting
I am scared: of ghosts, darkness, water,dogs
I need: a mentor,role model
I am happy about: ?
I imagine: that one fine day I become famous

What it takes to focus

I am having a slight headache and feeling really sleepy. I couldn't concentrate properly in my German class as well. And why? Because I didnt sleep early last night inspite of knowing that I would probably be in this state if I didnt do so. I was watching this wonderful movie - The Guardian. It was too good to miss.. But actually if I think , life has always been like that. There is always something which is not in my scheme of plans but it appears too good to resist. How do I focus? How do I tell myself that I have to sacrifice something to achieve something bigger in life. I feel the ability to focus is what differentiates the highly successful people from the rest. My experience tells me that it is not enough if I am just talented. I need to have the focus to give my 100% at things which I am supposed to do. I need to realise that this is the first step towards fully utilizing my potential and perhaps figuring out my goal in life. I need to have shot term plans - say a one week plan and I should stick to it no matter what. I need to be able to say no to any kind of distraction. This experiment of focusing on my day to day life may not show instant results but eventually it will affect my life as a whole positively.

Happiness

Life's been funny actually. I always thought that once I reach the state of happiness , I can then set out to fulfil my goals and perhaps figure out the purpose of my life. How does one define happiness? What makes me happy today may not matter to me tomorrow. My interactions with an anonymous friend has cleared this cloud of misconcepton which has been lingering over my head from many years. This state of happiness is an illusion. The desire for happiness is created by HIM( who?) so that we spend our energy in looking for it.Our thought provoking conversations(with the friend) has taught me a very important lesson - Stop Thinking and Start Doing. It may seem to be very trivial . I too always felt that I knew what this means. But it turns out that I didnt. There are innumerable things which I've always wanted to do in life but I was waiting for "Happiness" to get started on these. But this never happened and now I wonder what was the connection between the two? I had come across many people who always kept themselves busy by taking part in some or the other activity. I used to think that this is a sign of weakness, it is not right to keep oneself busy just to have a clear mind, one should do things for the love of it. But I was wrong in my thinking. Does one need to be happy to figure out his purpose in life? How can one be happy before one does the things which give him happiness!!(paradox eh?) Im so glad that I've finally set out on my journey and I'm loving it so far. Managing so many things in parallel (things I love) is giving me so much pleasure. My thinking has broadened and it is having a positive impact on my life. There is a long list of things to be done and I'm really excited about it. I've never been happier in my life

A Hopeless Romantic

I don't know how to approach you,
I don't know how to impress you,
I don't know how can I talk to you like a friend,
I don't know how to play games,
I don't know why I act stupid in front of you,
I don't know how to not think about you.
But
I do know how to compliment you,
I do know time flies when you are around,
I do know only you are visible to me when you are around,
I do know I can sit next to you all day and not speak a word,
I do know I will do anything for you,
I do know I can sacrifice my dreams for you,
I do know you will not notice me,
I do know I will only think and not do anything about it.
But
I do know I can live without you,
I do know I can fall in love again,
I do know I'll love your forever,
I do know I'll never stop caring for you.
I don't know why I don't give up.
I dont know why I always wish... if only you knew...

Love & Relationship

The lights are dim,soothing music playing in the background with the cool air of the ac giving one shivers, lots of whispers and other 'noises' in the background....... Dirtymind :P this is the scene I get to see every week in a theatre before the movie starts. Week after week I see hundreds of couples, some totally lost in each other, some being just good friends, some wondering if they are with the right person and some with a grumpy face because they didnt want to watch the movie in the first place.
Inspite of the wide spectrum of feelings among the couples, the fact is that there is force which binds them .Is it love ? Its such an explicable feeling is love.I dont think anybody can decipher love.You dont know why you like her yet you always think of her. I feel people take too much liberty with the word love. Ultimately we humans are self centered. We all wish there is someone special for us. It is this desire for a companion that binds couples.
Wow, as I write , I am able to explain things which I too didnt understand or had not thought of! Some people say love is all about understanding a beautiful soul and looks dont matter but I beg to differ. Love is a blissful feeling of attraction towards something that is beautiful to your soul. Thats all is love. What is beautiful differs from soul to soul.Some souls get attracted to her looks and some to her nature. What matters here is the attraction and not the cause for it. After this you start liking everything about her and this is love.Later even if she changes (her nature or looks), it doesnt matter because everytime you think of her, you relive the the feeling when you first fell in love with her.This is love : pure and simple.
What complicates matters is the human desire to possess something which is beautiful. And this attempt to gain possession can lead to a painful experience. If we dont achieve what we desire we are heartbroken. Once we possess something we desired , another human quality which comes into picture is greed . We feel satisfied at our accomplishment and eventually get bored of it and aim at something 'better'.
Relationships sustain because of various reasons. One is just the love for each other. Second is that you are possessive and hence you cannot imagine a life without her. So you learn to adjust and sacrifice and compliment each other. Third is that you have put in a lot of effort to get into a relation and hence you dont want to let go of it as you feel you will have to struggle again to find someone else.And lastly some people are relationship clings who just cant live alone. They always need someone to be there for them.
One major question which comes in mind is if love is a true feeling why do some of us cheat her or take advantage of her feelings for us.The answer to this is simple. It all depends on how good a person you are. As a relationship builds there is a fusion of love and conscience . How much you love depends on how good you are at understanding people and how much you care for their feelings.If you have these qualities, your conscience blends with love and becomes a stronger feeling which leads to this state called 'Devotion'.If you dont have these qualities, then love may not be enough to sustain the relationship.
'Anyone can fall in love but Devotion is something above lesser mortals'

Dance Explicated

Dance is a means to connect with your soul. When there is fusion of delectable music and an eye catching dance move, the pleasure one receives just fills the whole body. One can actually feel the energy soaring on the inside. I can compare it to an aura which is blinding people around or the first rays of the rising sun when it is in between two mountains.The more you practice the better you get at it. And the joy is directly proportional to how well you dance. I've realized that a true dancer doesn't dance well for the accolades he gets but just for the pleasure of dancing well.
Dance is also indicative of people's personality. There are different kinds of people in this world but they all seem to connect when on a dance floor. The way a person talks is dependent on the people he interacts with , the way he is brought up and his social circle. The way you are when on a dance floor is what you truly are because you dance from your soul which is not bound by any worldly matter.
In partner dancing you also learn how to behave with ,treat the opposite gender. You end up becoming a better person :)

One always has a choice

Ever heard of people cribbing that they have too much work and hence dont have a social life? Everytime I hear this it makes me laugh . But ofcourse I do it on the inside only! You keep hearing people say that you alone are responsible for your fate and yet they dont realize its not the work which is hampering their social life . Instead it is the greed for money(more work=>better appraisal) which is the culprit. One always has a choice to maintaining a healthy balance between work and personal life. Yes it may mean that you may not be the performer of the quarter but then who cares! You should realize that there will always be some work pending. There is no point in sacrificing your personal life for something which doesnt have an end.